Wednesday, April 16, 2014

A big Hello

I recently took this picture of our deck and when I used it today as my desltop wallpaper I got a big surprise.
That cloud in the upper right hand corner - I think it's Someone I love. :) It doesn't appear in any of the other photos I took and I took a bunch all at the same time.

Sunday, April 13, 2014

Happy Birthday, John!

Today would have been John's 71st birthday. We would have had a wonderful day.
Happy Birthday, Sweetheart. I miss you so much.
These photos are from John's 50th birthday party.





Wednesday, April 9, 2014

29 years ago

I came across these pictures today from 1985.  I don't know why I hadn't scanned them before. Maybe I need to go back through all my pictures again after I finish the first run through and see what else I might have missed. Or maybe the pictures mean more to me as time passes.
I love the colors in these two photos. I love how young we look. They were taken in the Fall of 1985. We were renting a small place in Dallas PA while we were between houses. We knew what kind of house we wanted. We just hadn't found it yet. So our realtor helped us find this little gem to rent. It was out in the country a bit off a road called 42nd Street. I think it was somebody's idea of  a joke when they named the road. The house was small and had been built somewhere around 1770. It had a beautiful sun room and the wildlife was wonderful. We could look out our bedroom window in the morning and see foxes and raccoons and deer. And we believed it was haunted. But the spirits were friendly. We loved our time there.



Saturday, April 5, 2014

Still my comforter

I have been worried sick about Riley these past few weeks.But through it all John has found little ways to leave me clues that he is with me, at my side while I carte for our baby. It's certainly not how I would like it. If I had my way, John would be here with me physically, always. But I know that's not possible and I appreciate the ways that he shows me I am not alone.
Thank you, Sweetheart.

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Soul Potrait

I recently had a "soul portrait" done by Wendy Smith from Sedona. These portraits show your inner self, sometimes showing hints to past lives or guides and masters that may be around you.
I thought mine was very beautiful. The gift of healing came through as part of the reading that came with the portrait,  as well as a "loving being" who is with me guiding me. Wendy thought it might be John. I have no doubt. You can see him on the left side of the portrait.


Monday, March 24, 2014

46 months today

Not quite 4 years but almost.
How can this much time have passed already? It still feels like John just left.
I will never get used to him not being here physically with me.
I scanned some more pictures today. Sadly they are not the best quality because of the camera I used back then. I also realized while going through these photos that I did not take enough pictures of John. But how can you know how much pictures will mean some day? We took so many pictures of the furkids and so many of the scenery wherever we were vacationing but not enough of each other and never enough of us together.
Hawaii 2000 - getting ready to go up in a helicopter
Hawaii 2000

Saturday, March 22, 2014

Our Casey

Sadly, I have had to say good-bye to another furbaby. This is the fourth baby I have lost since John passed; the fourth baby that made up our family while John was here physically with me.
We adopted Casey from the Arizona Humane Society in March 1995. She and Charlotte both came home to us that day. They were about 8 weeks old at the time.

I had wanted to name them Emily and Charlotte after the Bronte sisters but while Charlotte seemed suited to her name, Casey did not seem like an Emily to us. She was such a tomboy. So John named her Casey after a cat he had had when he was younger.
She was also very vocal and loved to talk to her toys. John nicknamed her "the school marm" because she would line her toys up in a row and then talk to them. It seemed like she was teaching.
Years later, when we adopted Riley, Casey became his surrogate Mom. He loved snuggling with her.
I think he is missing her today.
I know I am missing her a lot but I know she is home with John and some day we will all be together again.
Rest easy, sweet one. Mommy and Daddy love you.