Thanksgiving was hard and I am not looking forward to Christmas. Christmas was always a big holiday for us. Even if we just celebrated with just the two of us and "the kids", it was a big deal. I decorated, we put up our stockings, I made food special for present-opening. We had a tradition that we opened our presents on Christmas Eve.
This year, I just can't face the decorations. There is no way I can look at John's stocking - the first time in over 30 years that I won't be putting it up.
I don't know what I will do on Christmas Eve, and Christmas Day, and New Year's Eve. Crawl into bed with the covers over my head and pray for January 1st sounds appealing.