16 years ago today.
I miss you so much, John.
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Grief changes us. This blog is about my journey from loss to peace, learning to see the world anew, but never leaving my soul mate behind.
This is a hard week for me.
This coming Sunday May 24th will be the 16th anniversary of John's passing. I am remembering all the "lasts". The last time we kissed, the last time we held hands, the last smile - and so much more. Wondering what I would have done if I had known they were the last. Wishing I could go back in time and experience them all over again.
And that brought me to remembering so much from our 32 years together.
So, yesterday, I was in my car getting ready to run some errands. I pulled out of the garage and let the car idle in the driveway while I chose some music from my phone to play. I had recently downloaded Barbra's latest duet album. It's quickly become one of my favorites. The first song on the album is probably one of my all-time favorites and I consider it one of the most beautiful love songs - "The First Time Ever I Saw Your Face."
So, I opened the album and that song started to play. Then, the most wonderful thing happened.
As I sat there and listened to the first notes and words of the song, something caught my eye. There, right in front of me, a little feather slowly floated down onto my windshield and landed right on the windshield wiper. I couldn't believe my eyes. What are the chances of that happening right at that very moment?
I took it as a sign from John.
He was listening too.
He knew what I was thinking.
He was remembering too.
Our love is still alive. He is still alive and with me.
Thank you, John. I love you. ♥
Today would have been John's 83rd birthday.
I miss you so much, Sweetheart. I love you.
Happy birthday!
38 years ago today we had our marriage blessed in our Church and John also converted to Catholicism - getting baptized and receiving Confirmation and Holy Communion.
It was a wonderful service and celebration.
The party afterwards was so much fun.
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John and I had our first date 48 years ago today!
The magic of green beer. My sweet Irishman - I miss you.
Happy St. Patrick's Day, John!
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46 years ago today you and I moved in together and started a wonderful beautiful life. Actually it was a continuation of a beautiful love that started 2 years before – and maybe even before that – when we first met – and in eternity before that.