Yoko Ono was recently interviewed about losing John Lennon and she actually admitted that she is still trying to get over it. It's been thirty years since he was gunned down. But she described why perfectly. She said "Well, it was very hard because it was a sudden thing that happened, he wasn't ill for a long time or anything, it's just, we were talking before that you know, and, it was very hard," she told Reuters, recalling the moment Lennon was shot outside his apartment building in New York on December 8, 1980.
That's how it is for me, too.
The last thing we talked about was how we were looking forward to going home the next morning, how we missed our "babies" [our cats and dogs] and couldn't wait to see them again, how good it would be to be with them. Then I woke up a couple of hours later and John was gone. No hint that he had been feeling bad or sick. In an instant, everything was changed and nothing would ever be the same. It's hard to lose your mate. It's harder still to lose your soul mate. It's the hardest when it happens suddenly.
I agree with Yoko - you don't ever get over that. Not really.