Happy Anniversary, Sweetheart!

 

42 years ago today was the happiest day ever!

I know you are celebrating with me even though you are no longer physically here. Death only changes location. Love never dies. 

I love you, John. 

Communication

We just have to be open to hearing the message.

Case in point:

I have been having trouble sleeping lately. Getting to sleep is easy. Staying asleep, not so much. Last Saturday morning I woke up around 2:30 AM and instead of going back to sleep, I worried about a household problem. I thought I had come up with a solution but then I worried that maybe THAT was not what I should be doing. And so I started doubting my decision. Then I looked over at the bedroom door leading to our deck and noticed that the patio string lights were on. That was very strange. I hardly ever use them and I also always check to make sure all the deck lights are off  before I go to bed. Even more strange - the ONLY way to turn the patio string lights on is with a remote control. That remote was sitting in a cup, on a table, ON THE DECK.

I literally had to get up, go out on the deck, fish out the remote and turn the lights off.

I truly think John was telling me he agreed with my solution and that I should stop worrying and second guessing myself. There can be no other explanation.

Thank you, Sweetheart.

Namaste.

Missing you so much

13 years ago today you left for Heavenly Home. Some days, it feels like just yesterday.

I miss you so much, John.

But I know our love continues and I can't wait until we are together again.

♥

This is grief

 

Happy Mothers Day!

I am grateful for all the women who mothered me - my mother my own Mom, my godmother and aunt Aunt Mary, my grandmother Mema, and John's mother who I was lucky to call Mom, too.

Mema

This week would have been my Grandmother's 121st birthday. She left this world almost 2 decades ago but I still miss her.

We called her Mema. I take credit for christening her with that name. I was the first grandchild and my baby brain could not form Grandma. So she became Mema and it stuck for all eternity. All 6 grandchildren called her Mema.

She was a brave woman - she emigrated to this country by ship at the young age of 17. Married, worked most of her life as a great seamstress. She was ahead of her time. Her husband was very ill and hospitalized for many years before he died so she raised her children alone. She lived through 2 world wars, and the Great Depression. I never fully appreciated her when she was alive but I am proud that her blood runs through my veins. I have been told I resemble her, in more ways than one.

 

Happy Birthday, John!

Today would have been John's 80th birthday.

Happy birthday, Sweetheart.

Loving you so much.