Soul Potrait

I recently had a "soul portrait" done by Wendy Smith from Sedona. These portraits show your inner self, sometimes showing hints to past lives or guides and masters that may be around you.
I thought mine was very beautiful. The gift of healing came through as part of the reading that came with the portrait,  as well as a "loving being" who is with me guiding me. Wendy thought it might be John. I have no doubt. You can see him on the left side of the portrait.

46 months today

Not quite 4 years but almost.
How can this much time have passed already? It still feels like John just left.
I will never get used to him not being here physically with me.
I scanned some more pictures today. Sadly they are not the best quality because of the camera I used back then. I also realized while going through these photos that I did not take enough pictures of John. But how can you know how much pictures will mean some day? We took so many pictures of the furkids and so many of the scenery wherever we were vacationing but not enough of each other and never enough of us together.

Hawaii 2000 - getting ready to go up in a helicopter

Hawaii 2000

Our Casey

Sadly, I have had to say good-bye to another furbaby. This is the fourth baby I have lost since John passed; the fourth baby that made up our family while John was here physically with me.
We adopted Casey from the Arizona Humane Society in March 1995. She and Charlotte both came home to us that day. They were about 8 weeks old at the time.

I had wanted to name them Emily and Charlotte after the Bronte sisters but while Charlotte seemed suited to her name, Casey did not seem like an Emily to us. She was such a tomboy. So John named her Casey after a cat he had had when he was younger.

She was also very vocal and loved to talk to her toys. John nicknamed her "the school marm" because she would line her toys up in a row and then talk to them. It seemed like she was teaching.

Years later, when we adopted Riley, Casey became his surrogate Mom. He loved snuggling with her.

I think he is missing her today.

I know I am missing her a lot but I know she is home with John and some day we will all be together again.

Rest easy, sweet one. Mommy and Daddy love you.

Casey-girl

Our beloved Casey has gone over The Rainbow Bridge.
I know John is with her now and giving her lots of love.
I'll write more tomorrow.

Wedding Day

26 years ago today John and I had our Church wedding. We had married in 1981 with a JP officiating because we had eloped. A few years later we decided we wanted to have the church wedding we didn't before. It was a wonderful celebration. John also converted to Catholicism that day so he got several additional sacraments - Baptism, Confirmation and First Communion.
And the party afterwards was wonderful. John and I talked about that day all the time reminiscing about the love and the fun.

Happy St. Patrick's Day, Sweetheart!

John and I had our first date on St. Patrick's Day 36 years ago. We always celebrated this day. It was probably our favorite because it meant the beginning of us.

Bunkie Day!

34 years ago today John moved in with me and we started the next chapter in our wonderful life together.
John named today Bunkie Day and we celebrated it every year.
Bunkie was even one of his nicknames for me and I cherished it.
We loved our life together and told each other so often.
We were very blessed to have the life we did and I am so grateful.
John made us lasagne that night to celebrate.
I love you, my Bunkie.