Thursday, January 12, 2023


Our sweet boy Sean went over the Rainbow Bridge this morning.

He had not been feeling well since right before New Year's and we were working him up for probable liver cancer. He passed suddenly during the night last night.

He was the sweetest baby and gave such good cuddles. He will be missed by his brothers Riley and Chaz and his sister Bella. And of course by me. My heart is broken.

Rest easy, sweet boy. We will be together again. In the meantime, cuddle with Daddy on the Other Side.

Sean Patrick Collins 2012 - 2023

Thursday, December 1, 2022

10 years ago yesterday. Still miss you so much, Mom.

Frances Myers Collins, 89 years old, passed away on November 30, 2012 in Scottsdale Arizona. Services will be on December 14, 2012 at 11:00 a.m. in the chapel at Fairview-Maple Grove Cemetery, with Reverend Roy Spore of Waples Memorial United Methodist Church officiating.
There will be visitation at the Waples Memorial United Methodist Church afterwards.
Frances was born on February 22, 1923 in Dayton, Ohio but was raised in San Antonio, Texas. She was one of six siblings.
She married John Cagle Collins on April 21, 1941. The family moved to New York soon after the birth of their first child John in 1943.
Frances always had a strong love of music. She performed in recitals while still in high school, winning awards. Later, she and her husband sang professionally as the Collins Duo, performing many classical music concerts for more than twenty years in the Northeast.
John and Frances retired to Denison, Texas in 1983. Frances continued with her love of music, singing in her Church choir and performing at civic functions with John. She volunteered at Texoma Medical Center for over 25 years, at one time holding the title of President of the Auxiliary.
When her health started to fail she moved to Arizona in 2010. Frances was preceded in death by her husband, John and their two sons, John and David, her four brothers and her sister. She is survived by her daughter-in-law, Joy Collins, several grandnieces and grandnephews, and many friends.

Thursday, November 24, 2022

Thanksgiving memories

I am so grateful for all the wonderful memories I have of our life together.

32 years wasn't enough.

1979 - my hair, John's beard. 

Happy Thanksgiving, Sweetheart.

Monday, November 14, 2022


I can’t say that you cross my mind,
Because you never leave it.
You’re miles away and it seems like worlds apart,
And I miss you in waves-
Tonight, I’m drowning.
I miss the way you leave your scent on my clothes,
So that I think of you whenever I just breathe.
I miss the sound of your voice,
A bittersweet symphony that leaves my soul empty,
The sumptuous melody that reminds me that you’re with me.
I miss your hugs,
The warm embrace when our bodies mesh seamlessly together.
Engulfing me whole as time itself seems to suspend,
The wonderful cocoon of our love swirling around our hearts with powerful rapture.
I miss your smile,
How it brightens the room and stirs my spirit,
As your eyes sparkle with your gorgeous happiness.
More than anything, I miss the way I feel when we’re together,
Like we can conquer the world, the wind at our backs,
With limitless possibilities and open minds,
I cherish every subtle nuance and beautiful thing that is you…
You’re my favorite place to go when my thoughts wander,
And as I miss you tonight more than ever,
I can only look up at the glimmering stars and smile.
I just miss you - I miss everything about you…
You’re my waking wish on a shooting star,
And I’m thankful every day for the gift that is you and the way you love me.
I’ll count the days until you’re in my arms again,
Until then,
I’ll see you in my dreams.

Written by The Ravenwolf

Thursday, October 13, 2022

Have you never been mellow?

This song has been running through my head a lot this past week. I think I heard it in the grocery store and it stuck, like the proverbial ear worm.

It's a song from my youth - as you can see from the clothes in the video. 

I never really paid attention to the words that much before but this week I did and I was struck by their wisdom.

It's a take on being in the moment. Stopping to smell the roses, as it were. And in today's fast-paced world is a lesson to be heeded. I am guilty of being a human doing often. I need to stop and be more of a human being. And reaching out when you need a hand is not a sign of weakness. either. Again, I need that reminder.

Maybe you do, too.

Give it a try.


There was a time when I was in a hurry as you areI was like youThere was a day when I just had to tell my point of viewI was like you
Now I don't mean to make you frownNo, I just want you to slow down
Have you never been mellow?Have you never tried to find a comfort from inside you?Have you never been happy just to hear your song?Have you never let someone else be strong?
Running around as you do with your head up in the cloudsI was like youNever had time to lay back, kick your shoes off, close your eyesI was like you
Now you're not hard to understandYou need someone to take your hand, hey
Have you never been mellow?Have you never tried to find a comfort from inside you?Have you never been happy just to hear your song?Have you never let someone else be strong?

Sunday, August 28, 2022

Happy Anniversary, Sweetheart!

41 years ago today was the happiest day ever!

I love you, John.

I miss you so much.