Wednesday, October 30, 2013

"Talked" with John today

I had a wonderful session today with Mollie Morning Star, a gifted medium.
John came through as well as his Mom. I even got to spend time with Bill, my ex-husband and we made peace with each other.
But the best gift of all was hearing messages to me from John.
It left me feeling happy and peaceful. I have always known John was still with me but the messages that came through today made it all more real.
Connecting this way will never be as good as being with John face to face. I know I have to wait for that. But it helped.

Monday, October 21, 2013

I let another piece of our history go this week

I finally sold the antique car parts that John had. John had a wonderful eBay business going when he passed. He was buying and selling antique Mercedes parts and doing very well. He had a couple of cars that he had stripped and was selling the parts and he also bought other parts and refurbished them and then sold those as well. He had customers all over the world.
When he passed I gathered all the parts and put them in storage so that I could get my car in the garage. I didn't know how I was going to get rid of them though. There was no way I was going to be able to do what John had done and I was stymied how I was going to sell the lot as a whole. So they languished for three years in storage.
Then recently a dear friend put me in touch with someone who was able to find a buyer for me.
I was able to sell everything including some other big items that were stored as well.
It was bittersweet but I know John was there with me as everything was loaded onto the trailer and hauled away. One of the guys in the group was even named John!

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

John sent me another song this morning

From Here to the Moon and Back

I could hold out my arms, say "I love you this much"
I could tell you how long I will long for your touch
How much and how far would I go to prove
The depth and the breadth of my love for you?

From here to the moon and back
Who else in this world will love you like that?
Love everlasting, I promise you that
From here to the moon and back
From here to the moon and back

I want you to know you can always depend
On promises made and love without end
No need to wonder how faithful I'll be
Now and on into eternity

From here to the moon and back
Who else in this world will love you like that?
Forever and always, I'll be where you're at
From here to the moon and back
From here to the moon and back

I would blow you a kiss from the star where I sat
I would call out your name to echo through the vast
Thank heaven for you and to God, tip my hat
From here to the moon and back
And I'll spend forever just proving that fact
From here to the moon and back

From here to the moon and back...

Thursday, October 10, 2013

A revelation

I had a thought today that made me feel good: John and I are in a mixed marriage now. He is a Being of Light and I am Corporeal. But we can make it work.
This strange thought was probably inspired by the metaphysical book that I am reading right now but that doesn't make it any more illogical. I have always felt that what John and I have is very special. That if any couple could still be together after one of us has transitioned that it would be us.
So why not? What is there to lose?
I still feel John with me, encouraging me, loving me.
I know we will be together again and I have to make the most of my time left here, that there is a reason why I am still here.
It is no coincidence that I have started writing again, that I am feeling a sense of purpose.
I can feel John smiling.

Saturday, October 5, 2013

A visit?

Every so often I take a picture and a strange light appears in the frame.
Could be a trick of the camera.
Could be my poor photography skills.
Could be bad lighting.
Could be nothing.
Or maybe....