Monday, March 30, 2015

John's Memorial Garden

Some of the cacti are blooming in John's Memorial Garden. They are so pretty. It's hard to believe the Garden is almost 4 years old already. I planted in honor of John's one year anniversary.

Thursday, March 19, 2015

Happy Anniversary, Sweetheart!

John and I had our church wedding today 27 years ago. Since we had already been married [by a JP] 7 years earlier, there wasn't as much nervousness associated with the day. We just enjoyed the heck out of it. We talked about that day with fondness for the rest of our life together. It was a great party. We were so happy.


Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Happy St. Patrick's Day, my Love!

St. Patrick's Day was our day. We had our first date on St. Patrick's Day 37 years ago. It was our own special day that we celebrated every year. Thank you for a wonderful life together, John.

Sunday, March 15, 2015

Happy Bunkie Day, Sweetheart!

35 years ago today John moved in with me. It was a glorious happy day. He made dinner for us that night to celebrate. John was a good cook.

Saturday, March 14, 2015

I love our deck

John built this deck for us from scratch and I love being out there. I feel like I am surrounded by his love and he is still taking care of me. Today I planted some flowers in pots and just enjoyed the day.
The plants in his Memorial Garden are doing well, too. One of the cactus plants is blooming.

Wednesday, March 11, 2015

Just one more

I ache for one more - laugh, word, sigh, cough, whisper, hearing John say my name......

Sunday, March 1, 2015

Thank you, John

I wanted roses for my birthday but I felt that ordering them myself was cheating so I didn't.
Then this morning there was an email from FTD reminding me that today was Joy's birthday and did I want to send her flowers?
Gotta love marketing.
Or was it someone else?
So I figured - what the heck - it couldn't hurt to look.
So I logged into my FTD account and started browsing.
Sure enough there was an option to send flowers for delivery today.
So I made a search and asked it for the lowest priced flowers - just to see. No point in being crazy about this.
Lo and behold - a single rose popped up.
In our early courting days, John used to bring me a single red rose every Friday and then monthly on our first date anniversary.
I thought that was a hint from him so I clicked on it.
It was reasonable and came in its own vase.
I was going to get the single rose and then decided to upgrade the order and get two roses - signifying me and John.
I placed the order.
This is what I ordered.

It just arrived.

Notice anything?
John sent me 3 roses!
I know I paid for two. I just checked the order and the receipt that came with the flowers verified it.
But there are clearly 3 roses here.
So I guess I have the two I ordered and the one John wanted to send.
Thank you, my Love.

Today is my birthday

I'm 67 years old today. The same age that John was when he passed. Somehow that feels strange, something that should not have happened.
And I miss John today. I miss him every day but he always made my birthdays special.
We would be planning on going out to dinner tonight. And there would be cards and presents. And love.
So much love.
I know he is still loving me.
And I know he is with me.
The selfish part of me wishes he were still here.
And so I wait for that day - that glorious day - when we are together again.
I love you, John. Thank you for the birthday wishes.