Friday, January 24, 2014

It's the 24th of the month again

Today marks 44 months since John passed. That's not a milestone anniversary of any kind but it's still a monthly anniversary. The 24th of the month will always make me stop in my tracks.

Monday, January 20, 2014

This one's for you, John

John had this bookmarked on his computer and every so often he'd play it and we would both laugh.
Someone posted it on Facebook today and it made me smile in memory.

Monday, January 13, 2014

My new Guide

Yesterday I went for my final Reiki certification - Master Practitioner and the day could not have been better.The first half of the class was instruction and discussion and the second half was hands on and practice.In the hands on portion, we each had the chance to be on the table and receive the energy while the other students practiced.
And during that time, our instructor Susanne Wilson, a medium and Reiki Master, gave feedback on what she was sensing or seeing.
Usually it was about body sensations - "Are you having difficulty with your knees?" "Do you have stomach ailments?" etc. Or colors and energy.
When it was my turn, it was different.
When I was on the table as the client, Susanne immediately started to pick up John.
She asked me if I had dreamt about him recently. I had, just the night before and it had seemed like a little visit.
Susanne confirmed that.
Then she said "He's here. He just stepped in and asked if he could join us."
John stayed throughout my entire session, confirming our anniversary, roses, and other messages.
I could feel him being happy and smiling.
Susanne talked about how evolved he is and that he is part of my Soul Team now, my Guide.
I knew it! I have felt it but now it's confirmed.
I had been asking who was my Guide. Everyone has one - a Master Guide. I had been asking but getting no answer.
Yesterday I heard "Me!"
It was my gift from John. 
I love you, Sweetheart.

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

Our last Christmas

I made a stocking for Bella this Christmas. It was her first Christmas. I don't know why I made it. She doesn't know any different and I will never hang it up. I guess I just felt the need to carry on our tradition.
Ever since John and I have been a couple we have had stockings to hang on the mantle. I made one for me and for John and then every animal we had, including our parakeets. Over the years we had to retire some because our furbabies moved on to The Rainbow Bridge.
I didn't decorate for Christmas the year John passed and I have not decorated since. And sadly, more babies have gone on to The Rainbow Bridge too. First I lost Charlotte and last year Toby and Jessie.
But in 2012 I made a stocking for Sean and this past Christmas I made one for Bella.
Maybe someday I will be able to hang them again.
Christmas 2009