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Grief changes us. This blog is about my journey from loss to peace, learning to see the world anew, but never leaving my soul mate behind.
Friday, April 19, 2019
Saturday, April 13, 2019
Happy birthday, Sweetheart!
Today is John's birthday.
He would be 76 years old.
Happy birthday, Baby! I am celebrating with you.
He would be 76 years old.
Happy birthday, Baby! I am celebrating with you.
Friday, April 12, 2019
Another step forward
This week I rearranged the furniture in our living room and made room to move John's desk.
It had stood for almost 20 years in his office in a room off our master bedroom. Right after John passed away I could barely stand to be in that room for even a few minutes without becoming physically ill.
Gradually, that feeling eased and I was at least able to use the desk for short periods of time for bookkeeping purposes.
Then, in April 2017, almost 7 years after John died, I decided to make that room my own. Over several days I cleaned and dusted, went through filing cabinets, and shredded papers. I bought a cabinet to hold my crystals and Reiki books. I bought a new chair to meditate and read in.
The energy in the room shifted and it once again became warm and welcoming.
But I just didn't know what to do with the desk. So, it remained in the corner where it had been - now with a screen around it until I decided what to do.
Then last month, things suddenly fell into place.
I had purchased a new flat screen TV and in order to take full advantage of it, I decided to move the sofa and love seat closer to it.
And voila! A space was made for John's desk. I knew it would show itself when the time was right.
So, now it sits in the living room where it can be admired and used.
It feels good now.
And I know John is pleased.
We do this mourning and grieving thing on our own timetable. Each of us is different and that's okay.
I wasn't ready to do this any sooner than I did. But now my heart is peaceful about the changes in a way it would not have been before.
Namaste.
It had stood for almost 20 years in his office in a room off our master bedroom. Right after John passed away I could barely stand to be in that room for even a few minutes without becoming physically ill.
Gradually, that feeling eased and I was at least able to use the desk for short periods of time for bookkeeping purposes.
Then, in April 2017, almost 7 years after John died, I decided to make that room my own. Over several days I cleaned and dusted, went through filing cabinets, and shredded papers. I bought a cabinet to hold my crystals and Reiki books. I bought a new chair to meditate and read in.
The energy in the room shifted and it once again became warm and welcoming.
But I just didn't know what to do with the desk. So, it remained in the corner where it had been - now with a screen around it until I decided what to do.
Then last month, things suddenly fell into place.
I had purchased a new flat screen TV and in order to take full advantage of it, I decided to move the sofa and love seat closer to it.
And voila! A space was made for John's desk. I knew it would show itself when the time was right.
So, now it sits in the living room where it can be admired and used.
It feels good now.
And I know John is pleased.
We do this mourning and grieving thing on our own timetable. Each of us is different and that's okay.
I wasn't ready to do this any sooner than I did. But now my heart is peaceful about the changes in a way it would not have been before.
Namaste.
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