47 months today

It's the 24th of the month again. Another anniversary. This month marks 47 months which means next month will be 4 years since John passed. I can't wrap my mind around that. Four years. Four. Years.
How can that be?
When John and I had been together four years we were already married and had bought our first house together. We were starting a wonderful life.
Now I look back on four years of emptiness, and sadness, and missing the love of my life.
My heart hurts so much.

June 1991