For those of you who have lost someone you loved and miss so much now - how many times were you essentially told you were mourning too much and it was time to "move on"?
The last
thing we want to do is move on and leave our loved one behind. Yes, it’s natural
to cling to their memory, to thoughts of the life we had with them. But looking
down the road without them is not only frightening and upsetting, it will make
us feel worse. It’s hard enough to miss them now. But the thought of never
having another conversation, another hug, another memory together, can be
downright shattering.
So, we get our feathers ruffled when someone tells us we are supposed to move on. But I am not talking about stagnating in place and not getting on
with the business of living either.
Remember the character Miss Haversham from Charles
Dickens novel Great Expectations? Miss H was a wealthy spinster who fell in love with a young
man who conspired with her relative to swindle her out of her riches. On her
wedding day, while she was wearing her wedding dress and preparing to
go to the ceremony, she received a letter from her fiancé and she realized that
she had been defrauded and the wedding was off. She was both humiliated and heartbroken and suffered a
mental collapse. She lived the rest of her life stuck on that day – living
alone, wearing her wedding dress, keeping the clocks set at the exact time when
she received the fateful letter, and leaving the wedding breakfast and wedding
cake on the table. So, I do not want us all to turn into little Havershams. But neither am I advocating that we go on as if our loved
one is gone and it has not affected us.
That we move on as so many tell us,
and continue as if we have not suffered one of the greatest losses life can
throw at us, is cruel and heartless. It does a disservice to us who mourn. So, what do we do? We move forward, incorporating our loss
into who and what we are now and we create a new relationship with our loved
one, making them part of the different life we are living.
Is this pure fantasy on our part? Do our loved ones want to
be part of our continuing life here on Earth? Does love really go on after
death? I hear your skepticism. I had it too. And believe it or not, even after all this time since John
has passed and thinking that surely people know me by now and know how I feel and
what I believe, I still get remarks from some people telling me that John wants
me to be happy but only if I move on and let him go; that my clinging to him
and our love is “holding him back”.
Nothing could be farther from the truth.
And I know that because John told me that himself. I had a reading earlier this year from the wonderful
evidential medium Mollie Morningstar.
You might remember from my most recent book that Mollie gave me my first one
on one reading back in 2011. This was my third reading with her. She brought
through new information that no one could have known. But one particular bit of
information stood out and it was something John said to me through her in the
very beginning of the reading. John started out by singing a song to me. John had a beautiful
voice and sang semi-professionally when he was alive. He often serenaded me
while playing along on his guitar. This time he was singing and telling Mollie
that he was so in love with me. And he also said that our love had grown, that
it continued to grow, that his love for me had expanded. He wanted to share
that information. It made him happy. He said the torch of his love still burned
brightly and we were still in love.
We – not me – not just him – WE.
And it was all right if I
chose to remain single. It was up to me.
That was a powerful and important message for me. But it is
also important for you, too. Whether it is a spouse, or a friend, or a relative
– that love, that relationship, is not dead. The love is not stagnant or gone
either. It goes on. It grows. It doesn’t hold us back and it doesn’t hold them
back. It also doesn’t mean that we can’t remarry (if we choose to)
or that we can’t keep living and enjoying our life here on Earth. It does mean
that we can continue in relationship with that person in whatever way we want
to. And we don’t have to justify that to anyone.
I have also experienced benefits from practicing this new
form of communicating and intimacy. By focusing on Spirit, I have come to a new
level of my own spiritual practice. I have learned new aspects of what I
believe the Afterlife to be. None of this would have happened for me if I had
not pursued a new relationship with John, if I had not been forced through
necessity of learning how to continue our love and relationship with him in his
new vibration.
I wish the same for you.
Namaste.
