A special gift

I read in one of James van Praagh's book that grief is a gift left behind by our loved ones to us allowing us to become what we might not have had their loss never occurred.
I know I have become more spiritual, more tolerant, more patient. And I am trying to improve on that every day. I am trying not to sweat the small stuff because it's all small stuff.
I'm not saying it's easy. And I still would give anything to have been able to learn those lessons with John still here.
But I am determined not to waste this chance. John taught me so much with his life. He continues to teach me with his death.